Monday, March 30

random sneezes

Here's your update, Yan. Random stuff only. Forgive me for having an elephant's buttload of homework.

Finally. I fell sick. About time, you bloody epidemic! I was expecting you two weeks ago. And today I finally sneezed. Sneeze #32 so far. I shall irritate my housemates by sneezing as loudly as I can. And when they are close to breaking point, I shall scare them by sneezing my brains out. Oooo. Grey splatter. Funny.

Amazing what a cold can make you do. I cleaned my room today because I was back early and I was bored. Besides, I'm getting sick of tripping over stuff when I roll groggily out of bed every morning. But now this room feels like it lost a bit of personality :( doesn't feel like 'my' place anymore.

I dreamt I wore a globe-patterned bra. Must be a subliminal message about how the world is on my chest. Or that I'm so flat, that is the only way I can introduce some terrain on my body. Haha. Amusing.

Why do people hunker down when they are walking in the rain even when they have an umbrella? Does it somehow make them less wet, or help them walk easier against the wind? I don't know. Must try walking with umbrella someday.

Amusing Starfruit Documentary has come to a sad and sudden end.

Amazed Amy by showing her how I clean the bathroom mirror. Ooze toothpaste on mirror, scrub with old toothbrush. Hose down with water. Voila.

Am too lazy to upload pictures of Halloween Night. Blogger is evil for mass uploads. Go Facebook lah.

Sneeze #39. Blegh.

Monday, March 16

gardasil, anyone?

Is everyone getting this, or am I the only idiot to believe them megapharmaceuticals?

It's supposed to be a cervical cancer vaccine which protects against 4 types of HPV.

And it's rather expensive.

My $$ is going to fund Merck's takeover of Schering-Plough. Great. Let's all help in getting more people retrenched so that huge companies can cut both cost and competition. I like competition. I like watching them pharmaceutical giants squirm in their pedestals as they watch their patents expire and generics give them a run for their money.

I don't like needles. Doctors laugh everytime before they jab me. I don't know why. Now my butt is sore :(

Oh well, at least (and here I quote the good doctor) "the guys can start queuing after your final shot, which is in 6 months."

Felt like saying "what about girls?" 

But never mind :D my poor mother!

Monday, March 9

i need a hug

and someone to teach me calculus...

either one would do :(

Sunday, March 8

utopia

I was first introduced to the concept of a utopian society three years ago, in The Time Machine by H.G. Wells where humanity's constant and eventually successful efforts to make life easier brought about a utopia - there being no diseases due to preventive medicine, no reason to work after major agricultural advancements, no fighting because there just isn't any reason to. No politics. No social classes. No discrimination. No need to worry, no need to think, no need to explore. A world so safe, its people cannot identify violence.

H.G. Wells told me about the Eloi. Their world was so perfect, they didn't need to do anything but eat and sleep. And so they devolved. They devolved into a physically fragile people with no sense of curiosity or self-improvement. They were dumb, talking in a beautiful language but using it for the most rudimentary of observations and the most primal expression of emotions.

Expressed in simple English:

What the hell.

If the future is that, might as well start living like the Eloi now. 

Eat. Sleep. Make Love. Die. The End.

Utopia. Heh. The irony.

Was reminded of this when I finished reading Watchmen. 

[Watchmen Spoiler Alert]

Adrian Veidt engineering his utopia. Killing half of New York to stop World War III. Succeding. Part of me reacted like Rorschach. It's just wrong. It defeats the purpose of stopping the war. But here comes the genius of Veidt. Part of me also reacted like Dr. Manhattan and Nite Owl. He saved more lives than he took. And besides, it's done. Telling the world would render the deaths meaningless. 

And yet, is life itself meaningful if not for death?

Utopia. Oh the paradox.

But in this conundrum I take comfort in Wallace Stevens' The Poems of Our Climate:

I
Clear water in a brilliant bowl, 
Pink and white carnations. The light
In the room more like a snowy air, 
Reflecting snow. A newly-fallen snow
At the end of winter when afternoons return.
Pink and white carnations - one desires
So much more than that. The day itself
Is simplified: a bowl of white, 
Cold, a cold porcelain, low and round,
With nothing more than the carnations there.

II
Say even that this complete simplicity
Stripped one of all one's torments, concealed
The evilly compounded, vital I
And made it fresh in a world of white,
A world of clear water, brilliant-edged,
Still one would want more, one would need more,
More than a world of white and snowy scents.

III
There would still remain the never-resting mind,
So that one would want to escape, come back
To what had been so long composed.
The imperfect is our paradise.
Note that, in this bitterness, delight,
Since the imperfect is so hot in us,
Lies in flawed words and stubborn sounds.


Utopia shall never be. Not unless we cease to be human.