an annoying post fueled by insomnia

Here's a thought. Abnormal behaviour stems from emotional or psychological problems. People who do drugs are chasing a high so that they can escape their less-than-satisfactory life. People who do kids had traumatic childhoods and wish to ravish the purity they never had. People who do politics have a huge need for societal acceptance. Of course, it's not nice to stereotype. People who do drugs may be happy housewives looking for something to do while waiting for the spaghetti to cook. People who do kids may be the kid's baby sister. People who do politics may really honestly care about making policies that will ease your burden although it may bring huge losses to multinational companies.

Alright you get the idea. And now, since this is my blog, I shall begin talking about myself. Following this train of thought, I can assume that I have a number of emotional/psychological problems.

1) Irregular, non-circadian sleep pattern - May be due to deep dislike for social interaction, hence, sleeping when people are around and staying up when people are asleep. May be due to deep need to rebel, hence the attempt at breaking the commonly-held belief that humans are diurnal. May be due to dislike of sleeping in the same room as divorcee.

2) Tendency to bite lips - May be a reaction to feelings of insecurity and uncertainty. May be a desire to hurt self due to feelings of guilt. May be affinity to the taste of blood.

3) Tendency to mutilate nails - May be a nervous person. May have masochistic tendencies. May be bored out of mind.

I have 3 more, but I'm bored already. Thus ends a pointless try to further understand myself.

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I can't sleep.

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Thank you, Charis, for little children. Refuse to capitalize :) Makes social interaction seem all the more futile and complicated.

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Louisa, stop ogling at your toys and get em already!

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I really really can't sleep.

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You know, choosing First Year Seminars makes this little thing called 'going to Brown' seem all the more believable. It's a really good hoax. I mean, they bothered making up all these splendiferous courses just so I believe them. They even have my second favourite poet. Wow.

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Would it be too creepy to wear my trademark T-shirt when I first meet people?

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Come to think of it, it would be kinda cool to have a picture of me in that T-shirt for a graduating photo. A graduating photo. In that T-shirt. Framed. In some INTEC officer's room. Nothing seriously wrong, but cooler than if it was just some shirt.

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Wei Jie's running for ATUSA President. Hmm.

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The thing about writing so little about so many different issues is that readers don't know what to comment on. Sorry lor.

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Notice that blog-troll in my chatbox. She/he might be someone very influential, very eloquent, very nice, very rich, very kind, and/or very powerful in real life. But here, she is just an annoying blog-troll who shamelessly tells people to go to her blog so that she can boost her ratings and get more $$$. Very very irritating. The sad attempt at making me like her by saying she LOLed at one of my entries irritates me even more. I'm starting to wonder what the hell is wrong with me and why do I connect with the sense of humour of blog-trolls. Yes, I admit I went to her blog to check whether she's a high school friend or not. Damn. One free view for her. Thank god she isn't or I would have to say I'm friends with a blog-troll.

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And I don't get why Bugger has to release a royal decree every time he wants to meet people. Can't he just stalk the first floor of the library until we turn up?

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It's 6am and I still can't sleep. Even reading C++ and Catalog Entries couldn't bore me to unconsciousness. Dammit.

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Amy's method of getting people to throw away the trash has earned her my awe. She is pure genius. And she does it so effortlessly. Wow.

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In desperation, I have taken to closing my eyes, scrolling around and clicking at a random spot on the screen to choose my five preferences for my FYS at Brown.

Political Science - Freedom

English - Intro Seminars in Medieval and Early Modern Lits and Cultures

Classics - Herodotus

Sociology - The Hispanic Experience in the United States

Neuroscience - Seing With Sound

Random betul. Unfortunately, terlalu random.

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I shall proceed to finally have a serious attempt at losing consciousness now. Coo.